Breakfast at home.
Heavy Bag and crowd metro
French Bible, Heart of Darkness
Nap
Swim 1000m/ 70kg now
Whooper with Tracy
Nap
English Literature period introduction but in Chinese
Language Exchange with Mariko
Dinner alone
Health Magazine
French Listening
Metro and French grammar book
Dirty room>>>Clean room
Good night
happiness can be achieved.
2009年7月27日 星期一
簡訊
昨天和Peter聊到我簡訊破表的事情，他說美國提供500塊台幣讓你無限發簡訊的服務，他一個月最多能夠發五千封，而美國女生一個月最多可以發到一萬五千封，不過那比較像是MSN。
由於四百多塊簡訊費實在太誇張，於是我到中華電信網站去查了一下，才發現我十九塊的簡訊套餐根本就不能無限發簡訊，最多只能發十五封，一直以來我都傻傻地被矇在鼓裡。不知當時是從哪裡聽來簡訊套餐可以無限發短信，我每個月都發了近三十封以上，上個月更是發了一百五十幾封，所以我一直以來都多花不少冤枉錢傳簡訊。中華電信不會主動告訴你用哪種話費比較省，所以大家記得先研究一下帳單之後再繳費。
順帶一提，我已經一年多沒刪手機裡的簡訊，結果發現裡面居然累積了一千多封，於是剛剛狠下心全刪了。這樣做感覺還不錯，把過去的一切都拋開如釋重負，緬懷過去是沒有用的。
2009年7月26日 星期日
獨處
相較於一般人，我也許是比較獨來獨往的一個人。但是最近這種情況似乎有點改變，一個人的時候總覺得孤單無聊，唯一的排解方法就是靠發簡訊約人出來見面。不過這也使我的簡訊費大增，七月份的帳單讓我整個人大吃一驚，八百三十元。其中有四百多塊都是簡訊費。我安慰自己說，最近認識了不少新朋友，通話費大增也值得。然而八百多對我來說仍是個不小的數字，想想真的需要花那麼多錢發簡訊嗎？
我想身為社會動物，人是沒辦法一個人過活的吧。我們渴望和人建立友誼，建立同盟以確立自己的定位，但是當我們一個人的時候我們該如何自處呢？我最近真的有一種孤獨感爬滿全身的無力，也許在別人眼中似乎是病了，但事實就是這樣。除了尋求宗教寄託，人不免仍得互相幫助，我的感覺是如此。
最近我試著表現出友善，和不認識的鄰居打招呼，在教會裡面也試著和不認識的會友講話，總而言之就是想辦法多講點話。悶葫蘆悶久了也會想透個氣，我就是這樣的人。我爸平常有事沒事就愛和不認識的人搭訕，原本我對這種行為感到很不齒，但自己不知不覺也被他潛移默化了。
雖然一開始這樣子做感覺很怪，但過了一陣子就逐漸自然了。即使這世界曾經讓我覺得很冷，但是我可以做出小小改變來幫她加溫。套一句我很喜歡的話，「沒有人是一座孤島」，必須要互相關懷，我們才能活得快樂。我希望我真正可以做到這一點。就從一個真誠善意的微笑開始吧。
我想身為社會動物，人是沒辦法一個人過活的吧。我們渴望和人建立友誼，建立同盟以確立自己的定位，但是當我們一個人的時候我們該如何自處呢？我最近真的有一種孤獨感爬滿全身的無力，也許在別人眼中似乎是病了，但事實就是這樣。除了尋求宗教寄託，人不免仍得互相幫助，我的感覺是如此。
最近我試著表現出友善，和不認識的鄰居打招呼，在教會裡面也試著和不認識的會友講話，總而言之就是想辦法多講點話。悶葫蘆悶久了也會想透個氣，我就是這樣的人。我爸平常有事沒事就愛和不認識的人搭訕，原本我對這種行為感到很不齒，但自己不知不覺也被他潛移默化了。
雖然一開始這樣子做感覺很怪，但過了一陣子就逐漸自然了。即使這世界曾經讓我覺得很冷，但是我可以做出小小改變來幫她加溫。套一句我很喜歡的話，「沒有人是一座孤島」，必須要互相關懷，我們才能活得快樂。我希望我真正可以做到這一點。就從一個真誠善意的微笑開始吧。
語言迴路
最近覺得用英文思考比較順暢，打MSN或跟別人聊天都不自主地迸出英文，而文章卻寫得亂七八糟實在覺得殘愧。我覺得自己已經被內化成為「香蕉」，腦袋裡裝的全是跟自己沒切身相關的西洋觀念，後現代解構，精神分析，即使只懂得皮毛也要跟人家談個幾句以顯得自己很懂。沒辦法，在外文系打轉久了自然就變得如此狼狽。
然而在英文又沒有比母語使用者來得好時，我們這些英文主修還有什麼能跟人家比？論閱讀寫作能力，我們都差外國人一截，說的口語也沒人家道地。介在兩個尷尬極端的我們，更具體的說應該是「我」，因為到目前為止，有很多人覺得我國語有外國腔，偏偏我又沒住過美國，每每被問到真的不知該如何答腔才好。
最近這兩個月學台語有點心得，雖然我很努力地想要模仿台語腔調和發音，但是愈刻意愈顯得不自然。老實說我講台語講得比英文流利，然而每次和別人講台語，他們最後都會轉回國語。因為大家對於台語的標準設得很高，所以遇到像我這樣的破台語，他們會下意識地轉回國語。想好好練習真的很困難。
還有一件令我啼笑皆非的事。兩個禮拜前在教會吃飯時，有個會友說我的台語很難聽，語調起得太高，感覺像是馬來西亞腔。這句話重重打擊我，不過也讓我體會到要學好一個語言真的不簡單，需要許多時間和精力。會有這樣的結果其實也不奇怪，因為我以前根本就沒下苦功學台語。如果我能以學英文的精力和熱忱學習台語，也許今天也能講得很流利吧。
總而言之，人不可忘本，在接觸了幾個外國人之後，我才恍然大悟自己對自己的語言有多不了解。雖然每天都在使用，但卻沒辦法跟他們解釋出個所以然。這兩個禮拜六，我都造訪了故宮，領受那文化洗禮。四千多年的歷史就在我眼前展露，我重新體會到中國文化之美。二十一世紀是中國人的世紀，中文未來將重新站上國際舞台，鼓勵大家趁年輕時加緊充實自己的國語文能力，才不會錯失大好機會。
然而在英文又沒有比母語使用者來得好時，我們這些英文主修還有什麼能跟人家比？論閱讀寫作能力，我們都差外國人一截，說的口語也沒人家道地。介在兩個尷尬極端的我們，更具體的說應該是「我」，因為到目前為止，有很多人覺得我國語有外國腔，偏偏我又沒住過美國，每每被問到真的不知該如何答腔才好。
最近這兩個月學台語有點心得，雖然我很努力地想要模仿台語腔調和發音，但是愈刻意愈顯得不自然。老實說我講台語講得比英文流利，然而每次和別人講台語，他們最後都會轉回國語。因為大家對於台語的標準設得很高，所以遇到像我這樣的破台語，他們會下意識地轉回國語。想好好練習真的很困難。
還有一件令我啼笑皆非的事。兩個禮拜前在教會吃飯時，有個會友說我的台語很難聽，語調起得太高，感覺像是馬來西亞腔。這句話重重打擊我，不過也讓我體會到要學好一個語言真的不簡單，需要許多時間和精力。會有這樣的結果其實也不奇怪，因為我以前根本就沒下苦功學台語。如果我能以學英文的精力和熱忱學習台語，也許今天也能講得很流利吧。
總而言之，人不可忘本，在接觸了幾個外國人之後，我才恍然大悟自己對自己的語言有多不了解。雖然每天都在使用，但卻沒辦法跟他們解釋出個所以然。這兩個禮拜六，我都造訪了故宮，領受那文化洗禮。四千多年的歷史就在我眼前展露，我重新體會到中國文化之美。二十一世紀是中國人的世紀，中文未來將重新站上國際舞台，鼓勵大家趁年輕時加緊充實自己的國語文能力，才不會錯失大好機會。
English Service
The reasons I went to that church are very simple, to practice my English comprehension and try to meet some English speakers. My new language exchange partner told me that there are English services so I wanted to give it a try. Also the interior of Grace Baptist Church is very beautiful and splendid, and one feels soothed just by sitting in there.
The interpreter at the bilingual service was amazing. She spoke so fluent and beautiful English that I would like to be as skillful as her in the future. I prefered her English to the pastor's Chinese because he mumbled so much that I could hardly understand him. The central gist of the first sermon was that we are saved not by our good deeds and hard work but by the grace of God. I felt so touched because that message was similar to what I had heard this morning.
The second service was held in the basement. The worship part was mostly pop-music like about being a disciple of Jesus instead of a bench-warmer. The pastor spoke in a passionate tone but I felt quite uneasy in terms of the way he put it. To be a Christian one really should work very hard.
The interpreter at the bilingual service was amazing. She spoke so fluent and beautiful English that I would like to be as skillful as her in the future. I prefered her English to the pastor's Chinese because he mumbled so much that I could hardly understand him. The central gist of the first sermon was that we are saved not by our good deeds and hard work but by the grace of God. I felt so touched because that message was similar to what I had heard this morning.
The second service was held in the basement. The worship part was mostly pop-music like about being a disciple of Jesus instead of a bench-warmer. The pastor spoke in a passionate tone but I felt quite uneasy in terms of the way he put it. To be a Christian one really should work very hard.
2009年7月25日 星期六
Emails
The email sent to a new teacher in NTU DFLL. His last name suggests that he has French heritage.
Dear professor Beauregard:
I am Jackie Lee, a language and literature major from NTU, and going to take your novel course in my last year at NTU.
I want to know the booklist in advance lest I may not finished the reading assignment every week during the semester because I read very slow. Judging from my experiences in literature courses, only when I finish the reading beforehand can I benefit the most from the course or I will be just lost in the words of the professor.
If this does not bother, could you please give me a scheduled booklist so I can start to read them right a way. Actually I have started a study group of 3 to 4 people this summer vacation. We discuss the classic English works and other important works translated into English. We have done Hedda Gabler, Madame bovary and is going to discuss The Grapes of Wrath. We may also discuss the books in the booklist.
I am looking forward to listening to your lectures this semester to come and hope you have a wonderful weekend.
Sincerely,
Jackie
Another email sent to a friend just met yesterday.
Dear James:
Your English is also very good, and it was glad to meet you all yesterday. To tell you the truth, I have never been to US, but I would really like to when I have earn enough money. I am now preparing for the exchange student program to France so France will be my first priority for the time being.
Basically my English is based on self-studying the English material. I work very hard in terms of imitating native speaker's pronunciation and really find pleasure doing that. Maybe that is why makes you think I speak good English. In fact, there still much left to be desired for me in terms of accuracy, fluency and vocabulary because I have to prepare for the TOEFL test. I try hard to meet some foreigners these month to improve my English speaking as I told you earlier that I have never been abroad.
I also like the speeches on TED, which are very professiona but easy to comprehend so that even a language major student like me can learn from them. The environmental issue is also what I concern about. Recently I am reading "Go Mad", a book that gives simples tips for improve the pollution and waste problem.
I am a Christian already, and I just met David and the pastor for the second time yesterday by accident. I eavesdroped David and Elena's conversation on Thursday so that I knew they were Christians and tried to strike up a conversation with them. (I often eavesdrop to test my language comprehension, but that was th first time I tried to join the conversation).
I can see you are a very purposed-driven but at the same time a kind-hearted person after knowing your volunteering from your namecard. It's good for you to do that. I am also impressed by the patience and concentration you showed when you talked with the pastor.
Just to let you know that I will be at NTU almost everyday to study and swim, maybe we can meet sometimes to have lunch, swim or do even some basketball. I do not have many friends from science background so it will be great to talk to you. Feel free to send me text message or call me if you want to talk or hang out a little bit.
May God bless you.
Jackie
Dear professor Beauregard:
I am Jackie Lee, a language and literature major from NTU, and going to take your novel course in my last year at NTU.
I want to know the booklist in advance lest I may not finished the reading assignment every week during the semester because I read very slow. Judging from my experiences in literature courses, only when I finish the reading beforehand can I benefit the most from the course or I will be just lost in the words of the professor.
If this does not bother, could you please give me a scheduled booklist so I can start to read them right a way. Actually I have started a study group of 3 to 4 people this summer vacation. We discuss the classic English works and other important works translated into English. We have done Hedda Gabler, Madame bovary and is going to discuss The Grapes of Wrath. We may also discuss the books in the booklist.
I am looking forward to listening to your lectures this semester to come and hope you have a wonderful weekend.
Sincerely,
Jackie
Another email sent to a friend just met yesterday.
Dear James:
Your English is also very good, and it was glad to meet you all yesterday. To tell you the truth, I have never been to US, but I would really like to when I have earn enough money. I am now preparing for the exchange student program to France so France will be my first priority for the time being.
Basically my English is based on self-studying the English material. I work very hard in terms of imitating native speaker's pronunciation and really find pleasure doing that. Maybe that is why makes you think I speak good English. In fact, there still much left to be desired for me in terms of accuracy, fluency and vocabulary because I have to prepare for the TOEFL test. I try hard to meet some foreigners these month to improve my English speaking as I told you earlier that I have never been abroad.
I also like the speeches on TED, which are very professiona but easy to comprehend so that even a language major student like me can learn from them. The environmental issue is also what I concern about. Recently I am reading "Go Mad", a book that gives simples tips for improve the pollution and waste problem.
I am a Christian already, and I just met David and the pastor for the second time yesterday by accident. I eavesdroped David and Elena's conversation on Thursday so that I knew they were Christians and tried to strike up a conversation with them. (I often eavesdrop to test my language comprehension, but that was th first time I tried to join the conversation).
I can see you are a very purposed-driven but at the same time a kind-hearted person after knowing your volunteering from your namecard. It's good for you to do that. I am also impressed by the patience and concentration you showed when you talked with the pastor.
Just to let you know that I will be at NTU almost everyday to study and swim, maybe we can meet sometimes to have lunch, swim or do even some basketball. I do not have many friends from science background so it will be great to talk to you. Feel free to send me text message or call me if you want to talk or hang out a little bit.
May God bless you.
Jackie
2009年7月20日 星期一
失愛狀態
昨天和幾個高中同學一起聚餐。不免俗地又聊到了「女生」的話題，每天被電影電視音樂拔剌歌轟炸得還不夠，大家又偏愛聊，我也不知道究竟有什麼意義。即使覺得很沒意思，為了顯示自己很隨和卻也裝作有興趣地一起聊。
一群人說說笑笑吃飽喝足後，又在人潮擁擠且無比悶熱師大夜市一起沒有目的地隨著一群群人擠著。還記得不久前的一個晚上，也曾經獨自擠身走在夜市當中，大家身體靠得很近，但心的距離卻是天涯海角。回到團體行動的場域，我們在那個「當下」是一個小團體，從夜市走到師大操場，像是拋開以前的束縛似地，大聲地唱著歌，大聲地嘶吼，似乎同學也感受到我變得有些不同。
最後我們一群人在古亭鳥獸散，而我還想走走。由於不想馬上回家，我走進了捷運站附近一家在MR. Donut兀自吹著冷氣，乾燥全身黏膩的汗水。照慣例是什麼都沒有點就找位子坐了下來。拿出筆記本記下今天的花費，同時想了想一整天發生的事，還有大夥所聊的東西。一種無力的孤獨感又爬滿全身。最近感受性是強了些，也不時感到無比孤獨。我以前是不會這樣的，即使沒有朋友陪伴也曾經覺得無所謂。
我究竟是怎麼了呢？
一群人說說笑笑吃飽喝足後，又在人潮擁擠且無比悶熱師大夜市一起沒有目的地隨著一群群人擠著。還記得不久前的一個晚上，也曾經獨自擠身走在夜市當中，大家身體靠得很近，但心的距離卻是天涯海角。回到團體行動的場域，我們在那個「當下」是一個小團體，從夜市走到師大操場，像是拋開以前的束縛似地，大聲地唱著歌，大聲地嘶吼，似乎同學也感受到我變得有些不同。
最後我們一群人在古亭鳥獸散，而我還想走走。由於不想馬上回家，我走進了捷運站附近一家在MR. Donut兀自吹著冷氣，乾燥全身黏膩的汗水。照慣例是什麼都沒有點就找位子坐了下來。拿出筆記本記下今天的花費，同時想了想一整天發生的事，還有大夥所聊的東西。一種無力的孤獨感又爬滿全身。最近感受性是強了些，也不時感到無比孤獨。我以前是不會這樣的，即使沒有朋友陪伴也曾經覺得無所謂。
我究竟是怎麼了呢？
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